Forward

Now that I have entered my action period, the waiting is done. I figure god (or the universe) is telling me all the time, very clearly, which options are for me. My job is to go shake the vines, find the paths that interest me. Fast, steady, positive responses indicate a "Yes." Slow or no response indicates a "No." The more action I take, the more steady the datastream of Yes's and No's becomes, and the quicker I can navigate.

I called the game startup, am waiting for them to call back. But I noticed, as I sat there with my hot coffee, after a fresh cold salad, my pen poised over a new clean blank book -- that I was really waiting for god to answer. When I got a voice machine, and then no call-back the rest of the day... well, that was a "No" for today.

Tonight I go job-hunting. This job may still come through, but I'm done waiting for it. Life Coaching and Exeter's PhD in Performance Practice are consistent Yes's. I signed up for my first Life Coach class, and am off to look for other revenue-generating options.

Feels good to be alive. Feels... inexorable. Unstoppable. Cheerful. Fast.

Or, as the Terminator would say, "I need your boots, your clothes, and your motorcyle." It took some convincing, but soon he had them all. That wasn't the important part of the mission. Those were just the tools to embark on it.